A personal blog about a personal journey :: healing naturally from autoimmune disorders.
I am not a "professional" or "expert" anything, other than a professional person. This blog and all the information contained within is based on my own personal experience and is not meant to be a directive of any kind. Having said that, I believe people need to know there are options and not everyone takes the same healing journey. I chose to follow my own path and heal from within, on my own, with various methods and no pharmaceutical drugs, and the guidance of a holistic doctor. That was my choice. Be sure you make your own choice!

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Ups and Downs, and Things That Work

Hi all! My healing journey continues, and all is reasonably well. I have good days and not so good days. But I would not say I have any really bad days. I take each day as it comes, and do the best with it that I can.

I'd like to mention some of my particular problems, and then talk about things I do that work, or help.

What makes my days difficult:
  • Inability to eat or swallow well
  • Not enough good rest (sleep)
  • Blurry vision and / or double vision and / or weepy eyes
  • Fatigue
  • Inability to talk well
  • An overall feeling of unwellness from my neck up
  • Headaches
Things I do to help:
  • Drink as much water AND nourishment as I can -- this could be in the form of a meal replacement shake like Ensure, or fresh juice, or a smoothie. For me, cold things go down better than hot.
  • Eat when I can -- I can't eat at dinner time right now, so I eat in the early to mid-afternoon, whatever will go down. This is often a small portion of pasta with olive oil and / or some cooked veggies.
  • Rest when I can. If I am really tired and feel like I could sleep, I lie down and take a nap. My body thanks me!
  • Believe it or not: EXERCISE. Movement always makes all the other symptoms improve and I feel better overall. I have a go-to exercise that is quick and easy, but really gets you moving. Here is the video, or you can watch it on YouTube:
  • For talking: I don't try! It strains my already fatigued muscles and sometimes just makes my face hurt too much. I type very fast, and I communicate with my husband on my laptop. Plus, he is pretty good at figuring out what I'm trying to say. So, I keep it to a minimum until I really need to speak. I have been known to write notes to people who come to the door. They have always been very helpful and receptive.
  • For vision problems and headaches -- I take a break from the computer, which is the worst irritant. Also, a rest with a cold, damp cloth over my eyes is good. Saline eye drops can help, too. 
Just in general, I try to keep calm and positive. I use EFT tapping quite a lot, as well as energy grounding exercises, thymus tapping, meditation, and prayer. I read uplifting novels for fun and relaxation. I get outside as much as possible and take in the fresh air. The beach is best!

Things have absolutely been improving as I am able to reprogram my mind and get rid of all the negative thoughts and energies. Truly, our thoughts do control our lives. In my Orthodox faith, there is a book that has been very popular by Elder Thaddeus called Our Thoughts Determine Our Lives. I had read it awhile ago, but plan on re-reading it soon. It melds perfectly with my belief that our thoughts and energies provide us with health or illness, depending on which turn they take.

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Also, I spend as much time as I can on things seemingly unrelated to my health and this illness. I indulge in my hobbies and creative passions as much as I can. I love to stitch, play the piano, read, draw, write, craft, make things -- and so I do. My mind appreciates the diversion, and it is therapeutic and healing to create. Go ahead and try it! We are all creative beings, and we are creating our lives every single day. Add some art and music to the mix. It is always uplifting!

Finally, never give up. If you feel yourself heading that way, stop and go in a completely different direction. Or, if you are feeling despairing, it could be because you are tired. Stop and take a nap, or go to bed and get some good sleep. 

Our bodies have the power to heal themselves if we will get out of the way and give them the space and time to do it. Natural healing takes time. But consider the alternatives. Do you really want to spend your life dependent upon chemicals and drugs, and dealing with the horrendous side effects? Just relax and breathe, and let your body reset itself.

Stay strong, my friends!
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Tuesday, July 4, 2017

You Are Strong

It is easy to get down on yourself when you are feeling so unwell. You might think your body has betrayed you; or you have betrayed it. Or God is not answering your prayers. Or maybe you feel like friends and family don't care, and certainly don't understand what you are going through.

This is the time to remind yourself how STRONG you are.

When you struggle to get out of bed every morning, but you do it anyway.

When your body aches for no apparent reason, but you keep moving.

When your face hurts, but you still try to smile at your husband.

When you can't remember what it was like to feel normal / well / good, but you soldier on.

When you are so tired, but you get through all the household chores in spite of it.

When you would give anything to just be able to take one bite of solid food, but you make yourself another juice and drink it down.

When you toss and turn all night and can't get comfortable for the pain and weird feelings in your body, but you manage to calm your mind and talk to God.

When you hear for the hundredth time that maybe you should just go to the doctor because after all they are the "professionals", but you quietly continue on your own natural healing path.

When you can just barely manage the day, but you get in your 15-minute power walk regardless.

When you are so tired of hearing other people say to "be positive", but you work on being positive anyway.

When you just can't listen to another piece of well-meaning advice, but you consider what's said and follow your own wisdom.

When you are sick of being inside your body, but you nurture your body the best you can anyway.

You are strong when you make any effort at all while dealing with this THING which seems to have taken over your body. You are stronger than the healthy person. You are stronger than the person who runs to the doctor for every little thing. You are stronger than the person who relies on chemicals and pills to "feel better".  You are stronger than the person who has never had to battle more than a head cold.

And because you are SO strong, you will overcome. Your best is on its way to you. So...

Stay strong, friends!
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Wednesday, June 28, 2017


Flowing. Going with the flow. Letting things happen. This is very hard for me. I come from a family of worriers and controllers. People who just cannot relax and trust that everything is okay. Everything is in God's hands. We are where we are meant to be in the Universe. Everything is okay.

So, I am trying to learn this. Talk about a challenge! Basically, I have to stop myself every few seconds (it feels like) and remind myself that I AM OKAY. I am enough. I am where I am meant to be. And that everything will be okay, whatever is happening.

Last week my husband had a vacation from work. While this was a very good thing and I love spending time with my husband, I had to consciously make an effort to go with the flow because my days were not as usual.

I had to just do what I could, let go of the rest, not worry about it, and not allow any fear -- about anything -- to creep in. Sometimes I was able to; sometimes not.

All of life is about learning, loving, and living our best. Whatever situations we have been dealt -- or have dealt to ourselves.

I discovered a book that truly is life changing:

Click the photo to read more about it.

If you are anything like me -- struggling to deal with a severe illness, struggling with your perspective on life, struggling to discover what it's all about -- this book will be a gift for you. I cannot recommend it highly enough. If you read it, I would love to hear what you thought of it. Please do leave me a comment.

Meanwhile, just relax. Breathe. Be grateful. Smile and laugh. Find joy. Be at peace.

Stay strong!
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Wednesday, June 21, 2017


Sometimes we get so caught up in our healing process that we forget to actually live. And to live in such a way that we truly appreciate and are grateful for the blessings that abound.

Yesterday, my husband and I spent all evening out in NATURE. First, we went to feed our sheep and take them out for a graze (yes, we walk our sheep!) The sun was shining and there was enough of a breeze to keep the bugs away. Flowers were in bloom and birds were singing like crazy. The sky was blue, blue, blue! It was one of those days that makes you think Scotland is the most beautiful place in the world.

And it was so therapeutic and healing for me. Just to deep breathe in the fresh air and sunshine. Amazing! Why do we not do it more often? 

I have always believed in the healing power of God's earth. I absolutely believe the flowers and plants and herbs and rocks have energies which can be used to heal and balance the human body. 

After our time with our animals, we spent a couple of hours just slowly wandering the beach nearby. Oh the joy of walking in sea water, feet on the sand. Amazingly, the water was warm. And again: the sounds of the sea, the birds, the breeze, the air. Healing vibrations, all. We explored rock pools, collected shells and stones, and just let the whole beauty of the seaside wash over us.

Whenever you get the chance, be sure to get out in nature. Put your bare feet on God's ground. It is holy. And healing. It will give you some perspective and some peace. 

I always come away from a day like this thinking to myself, Why don't I do this all the time? It is so easy for us to live disconnected from nature. Don't let that happen! Spending time in nature is necessary for our souls. Take time to be quiet, to breathe, to look, to listen. To be thankful.

I came home feeling infinitely better and happier.

Be strong, friends!
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Monday, June 19, 2017

Self Talk

I do a LOT of self talk on this journey. The thing is, we are always doing self talk, whether we realise it or not, and much of the time it is negative. I don't really understand why we are so conditioned to be so hard on ourselves and so negative, but it would seem most of us are programmed that way. I believe this comes from way back in our childhoods, with events that happened and may have seemed insignificant at the time, or events that we don't even remember as adults.

When you are trying to heal, it is so imperative that you encourage yourself with loving, nurturing, uplifting self talk. Keep this chatter going, interspersed with times of prayer and times of meditation. You are on a quest to reprogram your mind and rebalance your body. 

I have lots of different affirmations, little prayers, and positive thoughts that I am weaving throughout my days. Some I have taken from books or websites, but most are things I have created myself, that feel comfortable and resonate with me. Use whatever works for you. And the name of the game, again, is PERSISTENCE.  It will take time to undo years of negative build up. Just keep at it. A breakthrough will come when we least expect it, often.

Stay strong!
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Saturday, June 17, 2017

Drop Your Shoulders

Well, yesterday was our 10th wedding anniversary. My husband had the day off from work, but the poor man spent the day mowing the lawn and doing chores around the house. I spent the day being choked with mucus, having no energy whatsoever, being unable to eat or drink, and going to bed early. And such is life. It was rather heartbreaking for me, to feel this unwell on such a special day. What can you do? You can roll over and die, or you can do your best and forge ahead.

You can also drop your shoulders. This is both a literal thing for me, and a phrase I tell myself repeatedly.  Drop your shoulders! When you are tense, stressed, worried, even fatigued, one of the key physical signs of this is hunching your shoulders. I think of it as having your shoulders up somewhere around your ears. And aside from not being very attractive, it is not good for your body, mind, and spirit.

So, if you can just drop your shoulders you will be reminded to relax, breathe, and become calm. It will help you to focus and de-stress. I promise. Just keep reminding yourself to drop your shoulders and you will instantly feel better, sometimes a lot, sometimes a little, but better nonetheless.

Stay strong!
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Thursday, June 15, 2017


Healing naturally is not the same as taking a pill and feeling better in a few hours. It takes time. It takes patience. And it takes persistence. Look at it this way: it probably took years for your body to fall into the state it is in. Your subconscious (which is about 95% of your brain power) has learned how to operate in its current state with years of practice. So, it will take some time to reprogram it and shift all the old, negative, and just plain wrong stuff it is harboring.

Are you praying? Be persistent.
Are you meditating? Be persistent.
Are you clearing out old baggage? Be persistent.
Are you exercising? Be persistent.
Are you changing your diet and eating healthy? Be persistent.
Are you building new and healthy habits? Be persistent.
Are you doing energy work? Be persistent.

Persistence and patience go hand in hand, and it's a good idea to throw in the biggest dose of optimism you can muster!

My Mom used to always say the time is going to pass anyway, so how are you going to spend it? She was right. The time passes, and I can either be working toward my healing, or I can be complaining and grousing and fighting and struggling.

Let go; let God. Flow. And persist in all the things you are doing to heal your own self.

Stay strong, friends!
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